Still My Muse...

Love you xx

Foxy..

i miss you so...

My Mich <3

Still in fucken love with you.. <33




∞ Forever ∞

Pincott

What The Fuck Do You Want From Me

Seriously now, what the fuck?

Last time I saw you, you asked me, do you want to do something on your
birthday? To which I said yes. My birthday comes along, no call no
happy birthday message, just silence. Thanks to you I had the most
uneventful birthday, but please don't worry.. 23 birthdays I've had
and none I can remember. So I guess thank you for keeping the
tradition alive.

Here I am now, January 14th, and you're still not talking to me you
told someone that were fighting.. Fighting about what? I don't
remember saying anything bad to you.. Or doing anything bad to you.

Ignoring me isn't helping anybody because if I don't know what
terrible thing I apparently did, what can I do to bring upon resolve?
I bet you're already telling everyone already what a terrible person I
am and turning everyone against me, but I know my true friends will
see right through your ADHD plan.

To look at this positively will be extremely hard, but I have to try.
I think that's it's a test of character from god, not on me, but my
friends.

Matt D - by my side forever
Mitch A - by my side forever
Brosefs - by my side
Everyone else at McDonalds - it doesn't matter anymore.. They can side
with you.. I just pray they realize one day that they lost a great
friend. And no, I won't talk to them after this is all over.. They
ignored me in my time of greatest need. Their chances, gone.

I hope they don't succumb to attempts to gain sympathy. Matt, when
you're sad, don't stir shit and bring everyone down to your level..
We're there to bring you back up.

In finale.. I hope you fucking rot in a sewage drain. You don't have
to fuck my life over because you fucked yours.

My life begins in February.

Maffew Thomas

Mitchell Kenneth James Pincott Aistrope

I FUCKING LOVE YOU TO THE DAY <3





xoxoxox

Gonna Make It

After much soul searching, I feel a little bit happier about life. But I'm gonna start with my birthday.

I wasn't expecting much from my birthday but I was happy with how it went. I got like a dillion messages from my family and friends. I had an awesome day with my brosef Keryn, I ran into Gavin and I had a nice dinner with my family. The only thing that pissed me off was Matt Andison. He promised me that we'd hang out on my birthday but he never got back to me. He didn't even send me a happy birthday message or anything. I still haven't heard from him. Yes Matt, I understand that we're not gonna get back together, I don't care if you're with someone else, but I thought we were at friends. I suppose not. Goodbye then. Thank you for wasting my money. Thank you for stressing out my feelings. Thank you for wasting nearly a year of my time. Thank you and goodbye.

That was worry number one in my life but has now been solved. Number two worry is my job. I think I'll finish my January roster at mcdonalds and leave it at that. I've also applied at Woolworths, Dick Smith, Tandy etc. Worry number two is half solved.

Worry number three was what I was gonna do with my life this year. Problem solved until I hear from QTAC about uni offers. I'm feeling confident that I'll be studying this year though.

Worry number four.. Being alone. But hopefully at uni and my new job, I'll be able to meet more people. Cute emo girl, preppy boy or whatever.

So while I'm in for a rough January, I think my year and my life will turn around.. If I fail this year, next year ill be 24, the same age my hero James Dean died. Poetic.

Fingers crossed for 2009. I'm gonna make it.

Fingers crossed there's food in the fridge.

I miss you a lot Matt Dwyer.. There's no one left in Springfield to talk to.. <3

Never Give Up On Yourself

One day I decided to quit...I quit my job, my relationship,my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.

I went to the woods to have one last talk with GOD.

"GOD", I said. "Can you give me one good

reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me... "Look around", He said.

"Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took

very good care of them. I gave them light.

I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth.

Its brilliant green covered the floor.

Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.

But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more

vibrant and plentiful.

And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed.

But I did not quit on the bamboo."

He said. "In year three there was still nothing from

the bamboo seed. But I would not quit.

In year four, again, there was nothing from the

bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said.

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged

from the earth. Compared to the fern it was

seemingly small and insignificant.........

But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over

100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots.

Those roots made it strong and gave it what

it needed to survive.

I would not give any of my creations a challenge

it could not handle."

He said to me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time

you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots?"

"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."

"Don't compare yourself to others."

He said. "The bamboo had a different purpose

than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", GOD said to me. "You will rise high"

"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and brought back this story.

I hope these words can help you see

that GOD will never give up on you...

On The Eve of 2009

Wow, 2008 has pretty much already finished.. Let me list my accomplishments..

+3 Started a relationship
+2 Made it into management
+1 Became friends with more people
-3 Relationship ended
+1 Joined a gym
-2 Quitting work
-1 Lost a couple close friends
-1 Stopped going to gym

Overall 2008 progress: 0

What a fantastic year it has been :( My life is going sooo well..

I want to break free. I want to leave town, sever connections and start anew. I want to have a career. I want to be happy. I want a life. I need to find someone to share myself with, share my thoughts with, share my dreams with. Apparently there's no-one. If life gave me lemons, I'd try to choke on it and die. But she hasn't given me lemons. She's given me depression and extremely hot weather and glasses. I want to find a workplace that will appreciate me. Somewhere that doesn't take advantage of me. I'm turning 23 in about a week. I have no-one to celebrate it with, but myself. I figure since I was an accident, life was not meant to be given to me. So that's why I have such hard luck. That's why I'm a retard. I never really ask for much, but all I need is a chance to live life again. Whether that means that I am given a chance, a fighting hope, something to make life worth living; or even death so I might be reincarnated into something more useful, like a drought resistant plant.

I look at bugs and animals and think, fuck, you guys are lucky to not have to worry about a rapidly evolving society, where you have to be educated for 15 years to get a job so you can survive. All you guys have to do is find a grassy spot or a tree and avoid cars. Why did I have to be human? Humans have made things too difficult for themselves. Perhaps if I was Almish or lived in Alaska, life would be sweeter. Or perhaps if I had wings, I could just lie down and relax on a cloud while I smoked a cigarette. Why is it all so materialistic nowadays.

I look up in the night sky and see hundreds of stars, all with their own revolving planets. Why couldn't I have lived my life there. It could have been simpler. Of all the places in the universe to have been given life, why was it in that particular spot in Quezon City. I guess I'm glad it wasn't Ethiopia, but that's besides the point. Perhaps I should dedicate myself to helping the less fortunate. But I am only one person. I look on Google Maps and my life looks so miniscule. I go to a random spot and imagine, whoever is living there could be living the life I wish I had. My life looks so insignificant, if I died, there would be nothing left behind to tell the tale of me. Except a few memories in people's heads, but what are the chances they'll think of me every once and a while?

Why couldn't have life been kinder to me? I did nothing wrong. Perhaps in a different life I did an evil deed, but why am I, someone with no memory of that event, nor any way to resolve it, suffer for it?

I need to have a dream, where my guardian angel takes me to the alternate world in which I never lived, to see how things would have been different without me. Using my imagination, I see the only changes are: Alex wouldn't have bought a DS; Matt Andison would have had one less partner and no Zippo lighter, my family would have more money, and Matt Dwyer.. the only person that reads this blog... well I don't know. I guess you'll have one less tie, one less hat, and one less component cable, although, I'm sure you would have purchased them yourself eventually. It's like the world and everyone's life is one big glossy ball of chrome and with or without me, the surface remains unscathed, untouched, unblemished.

The time is late, but I'm afraid to sleep. I normally get nightmares that steal me away until 4pm, and I wake up a little anxious, a little depressed and a little despondent. And just like the song goes, I finish my entry.. I just don't know what to do with myself..

Giant List of Sad Just Got Bigger

:"(

Major Depressive Episode

Oh wow, didn't see that coming. I was bored and was just looking up some stuff and I saw a partial picture of Pete Wentz's tattoos. Then I read up about him and found out that he had attempted suicide in 2005 and he quotes that the song Hallelujah by Jeff Buckley saved his life <3 Anyways, so I ended up on this website, ULifeLine and was watching some videos. There's this really surprising one by Brittany Snow who used to have and eating disorder and used to be a cutter. So I found a link for self assessor, answered some questions and have just discovered that I'm "Suicidal with Major Depression". :'(

I know I shouldn't take it too seriously.. but I'm sure there's some truth in there. It says I have to contact someone right away.

Fuck You

Fuck you matt andison. I fucking hate you.

Giant List of Sad

Sucks is life. I have no direction. I don't know what I'm doing next year. I might be stuck at Maccas as a crew person again and may never get out. I might not get into uni or tafe. I might not find a better job for myself. I'm getting poorer by the day. I can't afford to pay mum back for my car. I still need to lose weight. My friends aren't really acting like friends, they owe me money from like half a year ago. The weather is too hot. My hair is annoying and long. My credit card got hacked. Work is draining all the energy out of me. I'm going to miss my family Christmas dinner because I'll be serving fast food. My phone bill is due soon. My Etoll balance is in the negative. I've only bought three out of 12 Christmas presents. I don't know how I'm spending New Year's Eve. I don't know what I'm doing for my birthday. I don't know if I have friends who will show up to it either. My other computer just died and now I have to get it fixed. I still owe Alex $300 on accommodation. I spend most of my day sleeping or in front of the computer even if no-one is online.

Sydney..

So I'm havin a better time in Sydney now.. I've walked around heaps and spent a lot of money but it's been good. I'm at Maccas at the moment drinking a large diet coke from a Roni Buenos Aires cup, but only to take advantage of the free wifi :) The damn hotel charges 10 bucks for 1 hour, 25 bucks for 24 hours or 50 bucks for a fucking week! Outrageous!

I miss the people from Springfield Lakes a lot.. There's nobody to talk to down here, especially cause Alex tends to ignore me for his gay friends. It's not that I hate them, they're just not my type of people..

Jurassic Park is on, so I might just watch it.. There's nothing else to do lol

Sydney Day One

So thanks to Alex's sister Ashleigh, we got to the airport just in time. Check in line was heaps long and I accidently snuck razor blades onto the plane on my hand carry lol. Flight was bumpy and I got a headache, took just over an hour and was hell boring. Had like 3 or 4 hours sleep the night before so I was starting to fall asleep on the plane. Landing was good and Sydney airport was freeezing and windy..

Cabbed it back to the hotel and I'm feeling pretty tired, but Alex's friends, Joel and Ryan took us out to lunch at some Indian place. I guess it was alrite, but I coulda eaten soo much more. Went shopping a bit, kinda annoyed cause it was like gay shopping.. I spent most of the time in Off Ya Tree lol. Much more suitable stuff to me in there :) I bought myself another eyebrow bar and balls for my snakebite.

So I'm using Alex's computer now in our hotel room.. Still pretty tired and I'm guessing I'll have a nap before we go out for dinner. Tomorrow I think we're doing something in a jet boat across the habour. As for the rest of the week, I think Taronga Zoo is on the itinerary, as is Bondi Beach. Also, apparently we're going to some Hoyts theatre to see a screening for High School Musical 3 lmao. Sounds fun huh.

Listening - Sonata Arctica
Watching - The Simpsons

BBQ at Grande

Ah the bbq I was so looking forward to actually happened.. I was expecting like 4 people to show up, but it was actually a good turnout :D Pretty happy about how it went.

It was pretty windy at first, but when that stopped, it was friggin cold, I got bitten a dillion times, got a headache, had to pee and I felt sick. Not the ending that I hoped for but I had an awesome time. Glad I got to do a group thing, with all the people that matter to me, before I go to Sydney on Tuesday.

Looking forward to that heaps. Hopefully I won't spend too much money cause I'm broke as it is.

Went into work in the morning, typed up my resignation. Gonna work until Christmas Day and then I'm gone. There's no way I'm working Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, New Years Eve AND New Years Day.. Which is what they'll likely make us managers work, because we have to see it from "a business point of view". Utter bullshit. So Christmas Day will be my last, and I'm hoping to get a job at Woolies while I'm hopefully studying next year.

I'm exhausted..

Listening - Paramore
Watching - Chronicles of Narnia

Days with Foxy..

are cherished days.. He can always make me happy and it's good to have him as one of your closest mates. He's always there for me unless he get appendicitis.

<3

Disappointed..

I'm back to normal after having such a shit night out that Friday.. All the anger is gone now and I'm just looking forward to the next night out we have.

Disappointed? Yes. I decided to organize a BBQ for the brosefs because we haven't had one in a while and seeing as I'm such a nice person, I decided to extend the invitation to pretty much everyone who works at maccas, their friends and their partners. The bbq is on tomorrow and I have a whopping THREE rsvps!! That's incredibly shit.

After being let down on that Friday night, I'm in no mood to be let down again, but it looks like I will be. I'm mostly angry at the people that I look out for, do favours for, drive around, pay for etc etc that won't be coming, normally cause they can't be bothered.

• Mitch C - drove around everywhere for him, lent him my car, bought him drinks, lent him my xbox
  
• Keryn W - drove around everywhere, paid for him on numerous occasions eg dinner
  
• Nestor G - lent him $400 months ago which he owes me still
  
• Jared R - helped buy him his xbox, still owes me $200
  
• Matt A - bought him loads of shit, drove him everywhere, paid for lots of stuff eg dinner, bowling, movies etc etc
  

These guys are normally the best of my friends, but when I feel like I'm in need, they're not there for me. So are they still the best of my friends? Looks like it's a no.

I feel glad to be leaving maccas now, and hopefully get into a good course at tafe or uni. I'll get a part time job later when i need it.. somewhere like Woolies or Dick Smith..

I leave for Sydney on Tuesday morning.. I'm pretty excited. I don't know what I'm doing there though. I'll be there until Sunday with Alex and I think it'll mostly be shopping or sight seeing. Can't wait..

Listening - Jeff Buckley
Watching - Power Rangers SPD
Reading - Nothing

Nick Skitz 30

Well last night was a huge let down..

Firstly, went to the Mecca Bah for dinner.. It was good to see all the Sc00bs again. Talked to Hugh for ages about games and stuff..

Hate the fucking Met. Ruined my night.. Pretty much missed out on what I've been looking forward to for so long.

Frustrated

Argh. I gotta get myself out of McDonalds.. at least out of management. It's like, waayy too stressful. I can't cope. So I'm considering dropping down to a regular crew position.

I want to study paramedical science at tafe, particularly to become anaesthesia technician. :D

It is now 2008.

Wow. I can't believe I actually remembered that i had a working blog still. It's just as dead as the journal i keep.

Although it's been well over a year, there's been nothing to report. I finished uni, didn't get a job in nutrition and pretty much still stuck at McDonalds. That's not to say i haven't had a good year. I've met some really great people through Maccas, some that have since left, like Webb and Ben, and others that I'm still great friends with, Matthew, Keryn, Kyle, Mitchell and the like.

Things that have happened since last posting: graduated uni, missed out on graduation ceremony, went to byron bay, got promoted to crew trainer, fought with alex, dressed up as lock, met steven, went to dreamworld and was sick at the time, crashed my prelude on the centenary, worked on opening day at orion, bought my dream civic, went playground hopping, ate plenty of beef jerky, met raj, lost contact with other high school friends, got five piercings, have been ice skating every week for the past six or seven weeks, got a wii, got a ds, got a 360, 360 broke, got another 360, lent 360 to matthew, went to byron bay again, had a quiet birthday, missed mail delivery of something important, saw showstoppers at uq schonell, spent new years at keryn's pimps and hos party, got back into bowling, joined a gym, got my wii chipped, friends again with Matt Harris, uhm.. that's all i can think of right now.

I gotta go get ready for bowling :D

An update for the past six or seven months

"Whoo hoo! An update!" I hear you say.

Although I haven't posted in over half a year, not many memorable things have happened, and if they were memorable, I would have forgotten anyway because I have atrocious memory.

This should be my final semester at uni I'm hoping, and yes, it's totally stressful. Doing four subjects: Nutrition Science, Immunology, Professional Practice and Women's Health.

Nutrition Science is a bitch because the mid-semester exam was in week 10 and the final exam is in week 14. Format for the final exam is 10 out of 12 written essay questions in two hours. That's 12 minutes a question non-stop.

Immunology is also a bitch because the only piece of assessment is the final exam, which is worth 100%. The lecturer is like, "You only get one chance to get somebody's medical results right, and a 100% exam is a good way for you to get used it". Kinda really stressing out about it because I've only been to half the lectures and practicals because neither of them are compulsory or marked.

Professional Practice is pretty interesting. We actually get to go out in the workforce and implement a project/program in a real situation. Me and Naomi E are working at Ipswich developing a program to improve the nutritional health of a particular group of young Indigenous women. So far it's going alright, but it too is a bitch because we've got the final report and presentation due in two weeks I think.

Women's Health is a really shitty subject. There is no final exam, only presentations and essays which we're pretty much 75% through. I see no point in attending lectures as they're not even assessed.

In old news, when I read that they were going to open a McDonalds in Springfield Lakes, I quickly applied to the Goodna store which is about 15 minutes away. I got job and work at the back flipping burgers. Applications for the new store closed about a week ago and those successful should be finding out if they got it in late November. The store should open around Christmas time, so I'll be able to work heaps.

Many many many movies I want to see at the moment but have no time for as of yet.. The only one I can think of at the moment is The Nightmare Before Christmas in 3D. Scoobies should be seeing that mid-Novemberish.

Yay, I memorised it!

It's been a long while

jah, so i'm back after so long. i can never seem to keep a journal going for long..

basically, i'm back at uni (in my final year of nutrition) and it's getting even more stressful. my subjects are- advanced metabolism, nutrition, project management, pathology and indigenous health.. totalling about 21-22 contact hours a week.

on another note, i should go see a dentist soon about my wisdom teeth. they've been up for a while, but it's only now that they're giving me some problems. hopefully i can get that done during mid-semester break.

well, i'm off to do some study, and i'm going to make an effort to update this blog more regularly (not that anyone reads it mind you)

Chocolate factory!

So yeah. At about lunchtime, family minus dad, went for yum cha at landmark. It was nice. Cost about $13 a head, which i must say isn't too bad considering i was rather full by the end of it. Also saw old boss Emil with friends :s

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory started at 2:30. And omfgomfgomfgomfgomfgomfg... Goblet of Fire trailer was on :D It was the international trailer and it looks even better on the big screen. When it started everyone sounded excited ^^ or perhaps that was just me.

Charlie was a decent movie. I wouldn't really compare it too much with the 1971 version. But i think i did expect too much of it. It needed more character depth and the overall feeling just wasn't right. For a tim burton/danny elfman movie.. i'd say it was disappointing. It would've been nice if the kids had a song each instead of deep roy singing about them. It was odd. And so was johnny depp as willy wonka. I think he's above that kind of role. But anyways.. it was enjoyable enough :)

Now i can't wait for the corpse bride :D That should be really good.

Music: None, cause i got a headache. Possibly a tumor.

FFFAAAAAAAAARRRRKKKK

I failed my clinical physiology exam.

I suppose there's a first for everything though.

I'm dead X(

On a lighter note however, i did watch Finding Neverland a couple days ago, and all i can say is what a great movie it is. I loved it so. Can't really describe how i felt after watching it though. It's almost the same feeling as when I knew Peter and Wendy had a doomed love in Peter Pan. Almost bittersweet.

Hooray for me.. i'm gonna go see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory tomorrow with the family. Can't wait. But on Sunday, i WILL do uni work. I'm behind a fair bit owing to me skipping classes to study for the exams which i failed anyway. I've got 3 weeks until my nutrition science exam, microbiology assignment deadline and the holidays. 3 weeks really isn't much.

Failing an exam is harsh enough. I don't want to fail a subject. It'll screw my whole timetable up even more.

Music: Dashboard Confessional - As Lovers Go (Ron Fair Remix)

Clinical phys is done

I drove to indooroopilly again cause i got up late. My fuel is low so i'll have to fill up.. damn it's expensive.

Had my clinical physiology exam this afternoon at 4. It was worse than i imagined. Everyone else says they did badly too, but i doubt it. It's like i knew i quite a bit on a lot of topics, but just couldn't write it down properly. And the MCQ seemed to test everything i didn't learn. I'm probably only confident on maybe 8 of them (out of 30) :'(

At least that's out of the way. The next exam i have is on friday... metabolism. It's only the first 4 lectures and it's MCQ so i'll worry about it on wednesday. Right now i just want to relax..

Watched simpsons, it's was actually a really good episode. It was very emotional and moving, though, i did not cry. That's just sad. Also watched idol tonight. I was somewhat shit. Lee Harding did not deserve to get into the finals. I mean he is good and entertaining, but not the one. I think Emily should get in through the wildcards. She's got some potential.. and she's from Brisbane.

Omgomg.. it was very cool. Dan England made it as a finalist too ^^ He's real good. I haven't seen the other finalists perform (except for dan, lee and natalie), but England's prolly my favorite one this season.



Music: Don McLean - American Pie

Totally freaking out!

Argh! I got my clinical physiology exam on monday and i don't feel as ready as i should be. There are only 2 topics, gastroenterology and the endocrine system. But, they test about what happens when everything goes wrong (which is heaps of stuff). I plan to finish endocrine today and finish up gastro in the library tomorrow cause i need the book medical physiology which is on course reseve.

The exam is worth 60 marks and 30% of the overall grade. There'll be 30 MCQ's and a choice of only 1 short answer question.. which, funnily enough, is worth 30 marks. I understand some stuff, but just can't get down to the level that's required. Like how the hormones and all that stuff affect everything else. I should actually probably be studying now :P

The exam is on at 4pm, but I have class all morning, so i plan to skive off my physiology 2 lecture. I really shouldn't because my weeks have 23 contact hours, and last week i went to about 11 :S I missed 2 hrs on monday, 3 on tuesday, 2 on wednesday, 2 on thursday and 3 on friday.. double crap.

Music: Bright Eyes - First Day Of My Life

Pinoy Big Brother

Just when BB05 finishes (CAN'T BELIEVE THE LOGANS WON!), the Phils have their version.. first season.

It's on at like 11 at night on TFC (the filo channel) and it's not too bad. if only i could understand what they are talking about. lol



These are the housemates.. L-R, T-B:
Uma, Sey, Bob, Cass,
Raquel, Rico, Nene, Jason,
Jb, Jenny, Franzen, Chx

The prizes i think are a house+land, a car and 1 million pesos.. which is about AUD $20 000 with the terrible currency exchange rate. But, i must say, 1 million pesos may go a long way in the phils.

Music: Jason Mraz - You And I Both

So sleepy right now

I had my physiology 2 exam on monday. It wasn't as hard as i expected, but i don't think i did as well as i hoped. There were too many questions on female hormones during the uterine and ovulatory cycles. I hate hormones, they suck. Male reproductive system and respiration systems were okay.

For tuesday, i had that stupid food diary to hand in. I only started the analysis monday night so i did a real shitty job of it. Although it was only 2 pages, double spaced, i couldn't think of anything much to write. The final product sounded like my little brother could have written it.

NEXT monday, i have a clinical physiology exam on the gastrointestinal and endocrine systems. It's gonna be so hard. Sigh, i'm so depressed right now.

One thing that's keeping me going though is my new obsession. Well maybe not obsession. Possibly more like a hobby. I had a really good idea for a fantasy novel which i started to write. But it got too hard and complicated and filled with plot holes as time travel is integral to it. So instead, i'm writing a children's book :) It's gonna be called I Want To Be A Goldfish or I Wish I Was A Goldfish or I Wish I Were A Goldfish. It's a working progress. I highly doubt it, but if it got published, that'd be soooo cool. I mean if Fergie can do it...

I'm soooo dizzy right now. The computer screen looks a mile away sometimes and like a 6inch sub the next moment.

I need new glasses. My current ones are like from grade 10, i think. I'm gonna go get my eyes checked on Sept 10 to get my prescription and hopefully my frames on the holidays.

She's much hotter than Ariel.



Music: Bjork - It's Oh So Quiet

Okay, I'm sorta back

I suppose i'll come back and use this blog as my 'release'.

Well at the moment i should be studying for my physiology exam tomorrow and/or doing my food and nutrition assignment which is due on tuesday. For that one, i have to analyse my food intake over 4 days and comment on an outstanding vitamin.. whether it be deficiency or the opposite.. undeficiency.

I'm getting really worried about physiology though. It's a 30% mid-semester and i'm not really ready. I know what to expect from it but there's no way i can get a good mark for it. If i stay up all night tonight, i could possibly scrape through with a 3 or 4.

It's not really good of me to do so badly in my physiology classes. For last semester, i got 50% for physiology 1 and that's so not good. Considering i want to have a job in medicine or similar. I should work harder and be less lazy.

I thought i could cope with 5 subjects, but alas, i was wrong, as i always am.

Omfgomfgomfgomfg!! I can't wait until Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire! It looks absolutely fantastic. It finally looks like the epic it's meant to be :) Great work Mike Newell. Personally, my favorite movie so far out of the series would be Prisoner of Azkaban. Before any of you jump down my throat, you have to admit it did capture the world of Harry Potter. Although i must agree it would have been nice if it stuck to the book a little more. Most changes i believe were fine as books cannot be exactly translated to the screen. They're two completely different mediums and a story may not work so well in the movies even though it was a great book.

Alfonso Cuaron's directing was simply an incredible piece of art. A couple of unforgivable things however... 1. The changing of position of the Gryffindor common room.. that was completely unnecessary and stupid. Well, actually, that's the only thing i can think of at the moment.. Oh, and the fact that when a scene was cut, they abandoned it completely. They didn't put in that extra day's work just to finish the scene. It would have been nice if it made like an extended dvd version.

But anyways, back to Goblet, I am so excited about it. The trailer is just wow.. I must say though, i hope Patrick Doyle is up to scratch with his scoring. The trailer puts a lot to live up to.

Well i actually better go and finish my study.. and maybe if i'm free one day, i'll skin this bitch.

I got bored...